Everything... (1)

          I am very grateful that Lord Jesus forgive all my sin when I first became a christian.. And that will be 2 days ago on 1st of October.. Although Lord had forgiven me... I'm still not able to forgive myself... Lord gave everything that is good for me... And yet... I pushed it all away with a single swipe... I really hope she will be happy now and always... I don't mind that she's hating me... I should be hated... The things i did to her is inhuman... But... She still cares for me... Yesterday... 2nd of October, was the birthday of Eunice, one of my true friend... She called us to all to go Sunway with her... And I go without hesitation...

          A few days before, when I was still in a relationionship with her.

"Hey, your birthday is near, what do you want for your present? =D "

"Hmmm.. Being together with you is the best present ever! X) " 

"Okay, lets go out on 2nd of October?"

"I guess that'll be alright.. Where to?"

"Sunway!"

"But isn't that day the birthday of Eunice?"

"Omg? Is it? Then? You celebrate with her?"

"Not sure about that.. But I think I should stick with your plan sweetheart! =P"

          And things started to go wrong... Really wrong... I ended up broking up with her in the midnight... I made a foolish decision in a fury... But of course.. I end up regretting the next day... But things changed... I tried to repair our broken relationship... Our school has this thing call "folio".. It's kind of a project that can make your examination result sky rocket or "the other way".. And I can promise you that you don't want "the other way".. She finally done it after quite some time.. And guess what? She don't have a printer and needed someone to help her...

       I quickly offered my help as I though it's only just a few paper... And after some talking.. She accepted it! The feeling of being needed by someone you love and care is... "Wonderful".. After sending the projects to me via MSN... I happily asked my  father to print it out for me (I don't know how to use a printer).. The moment my father open the file.. He gave me the kind of stare that said :"Are you serious?".. I wonder whats wrong... So I look at the bottom (where my father is pointing) of the opened file... 1/40... "What's that?" I ask innocently.. "This is only the first page of the 40 pages.."

          "Oh..." I choked out.. "Isn't this a little too much? And there's still a few files there.." and he went to click the remaining file... The feeling of relieve flow through me, as those remaining files were just only a few page.. Maybe 10~16 I guess... 

           Dad printed out the 10~16 papers and grunted:"Son.. 10~16 is okay... But.. Don't you think that 40 is a little too much?" I knew when the moment he said that.. Anymore begging will be no use at all.. But I've promised her that I'll be giving her the papers by tomorrow!!! I CAN'T GIVE UP THAT EASILY!!! I went and search through my MSN contacts... Most of them were off because its 11 PM, and tomorrow is a school day... A sudden though chill down my bone, "will she be mad at me because I din't did what i promised to? Will she think that I'm doing this just to mess up her life?"

         And at that moment.. I saw a friend of mine that live quite near to my house, Chin Jun Hao, online. I quickly beg him to print the 40 pages for me. Without hesitation, he agreed to help me although his mother is nagging him non stop to get to bed. And because of that, the promise i made was not broken...